I came back from my 4 day trip to Oregon. It's good to be home and it was good to go. I had a chance to do a lot of thought and reading while I was in the cabin. Since we had no internet connection, I had to force my mind to SLOW down.
On Saturday after dinner we did go see the fireworks and stay the night to attend church.
That gave me an opportunity to check myself back in to what the rest of the world was doing... But after church we headed back up to no civilization again. Which was a good feeling.
It's funny to me because while I was in the woods there were so many times that I had to calm my mind. Calm myself from the to-do LIST that we constantly bombard ourselves.
I had to remind myself that doing nothing was ok. That just relaxing and diving into some books was perfectly fine. It wasn't until Saturday that I was really feeling that I could relax.
I also fell down the stairs. I fell while holding my son. It was quite frustrating since I sprained my ankle while doing so. I knew i shouldn't of held him. But, of course as a mother you want to carry your child. You want to help him. And so I did.
The sprain is healing nicely, and I am already attempting to do exercises to strengthen my ankle.
I also learned that I have a lot of negative talk that goes on my head. Not sure if any of you can relate. Everything from ...
- why would she do that
- how rude of her
- I try to give so much and get nothing back from them
- why is she trying to make me feel bad
- they prefer them over my child
- they really don't love me
I learned this. People are not out to get you. People are busy with their own lives, and not worried about HOW to get YOU. And I think the most vital ahhaaa that I need to remind myself of - I can NOT change the way other people behave, or feel towards me. I can ONLY change myself.
The best part from all of this stinken thinking is that you can dust yourself off and being today with a NEW attitude. New take on LIFE and how you feel towards people.
Start by having a grateful heart. Grateful that I am surrounded by people that LOVE me. Like my husband and children. Grateful that I have kind neighbors that reach out to me. Grateful that I HAVE desire and motivation. Grateful that I do have friends that want to spend time with me.
Sometimes, we allow the negative thinking to take over. To allow us to think for us. But, don't let that happen. Start thinking of all that you have and are grateful for.
With love, ME
